I just can't stop thinking of myself aged 6 or 7. I truly love myself. When I see myself as a boy I feel so in love that I would like to speak with that boy who was me from the past. I would give him a big hug and kiss him without hurting him. Is it strange to feel attracted to our younger ourselves? I can't stop thinking of a photo of myself where I'm naked smiling in the bed (nothing illegal). I'm really depressed and think of suicide every day but that photo keeps me alive: it gives me an intense joy and sense of freedom. I need help or some advice please: thanks!
I think it's not that rare. Some pedophiles like what they looked like as a child. And yes, the fact children exist is the strongest power that keeps me alive, too. I haven't ever been thinking of a suicide (at least, not because of the fact I'm a pedophile) but the world would be very very boring without children.