As you know, I´m from the Netherlands, once a nice and tolerant country. That was long ago (before 1996).
I´m on holidays in Central-America (Mexico, Honduras, Guatemala, Republica Sandinista de Nicaragua) and it should be nice, but it is not.

I feel lonely and sad.

I do speak Spanish, I can communicate, but because I like little girls I feel like nobody actually likes me. Not the Guatemalans here, but also not the other tourists (if I happen to meet some). Yes, the Guatemalans are friendly, but extremely religious, especially the Evangelicals are extremely fundamentalist, materialist (strange actually, it´s even contrary to what the Bible says) and in love with money and the USA. It´s not the real Words of Jesus they preach here and according to a French lady I meet, the Evangelical movement is actually a project of the American CIA (who still do lot of terrible things in this region like killing Mayan-people who resist against Canadians and Americans polluting their environment).
As it originates from the USA, they hate pedofiles and they are extremely puritan and when for example they will swim they leave almost all their clothes on (imagine swimming in a swimming-pool in Czech Republics with all your clothes on, for Evangelicals it´s really normal

The katholics are also of the extremist variant, like in Europe we have the Polish. I´ve the feeling everybody hates me on this planet, since almost everybody dislikes people who like little girls.

I have some good friends in Holland, they do not mind I like little girls (why did God after all made little girls soo beautyfull


When I was swimming in the ocean here, there is a dangerous current, and I simply do not care anymore. There are malaria-mosquitos here and I stopped protecting myself, since actually I hope to die soon with malaria or die in the ocean with a strong current. I do believe in God (but not the commercial USA-version, not the Coca-Cola-Jesus they have here) and also in reincarnation. I do not know if God allows me to kill myself, that´s why I still did not do it. But life is too difficult, everywhere on the planet, every continent, people hate me because I like little girls.
I do not know when I kill myself, God can forgive me and I will have a better life on a more nice planet (well actually nothing wrong with this planet, just the people on this planet are stupid). I can live without sex, but I can´t live here on this planet if everybody hates me and I have to lie everyday when Guatemalans ask me why I am not married.
I hope I can find the Power not to kill myself, I still do not have malaria here.
I hope other pedofiles here are more happy. Sometimes I feel happy too, maybe thing will get better soon.
Na schledanou,
Kofola Nizozemi.
