I am Max, a german pedo-activist from the team of the german equivalent of ČEPEK Schicksal und Herausforderung (german for „Fate and Challenge“). We want to help pedophiles lead happy law-abiding lives and fight stigmatization of non-offending pedophiles. We are in close contact to the german Dunkelfeld-Project (kein-taeter-werden.de, troubled-desire.com) and share the same basic views like your forum outlines them in its rules. I am here because I have just now found out that there is an english section here. Somehow I must have missed that when I looked up ČEPEK before. I would like to see projects like ours connect internationally.
I am in my thirties and feel attracted to girls and women aged 5-12 and >20. After noticing that in my early 20s I feel into the deep emotional hole of a severe personal crisis: who and what was I? What truly is my identity? Can I even not offend or will my pedophilia overwhelm me eventually? That made me seek therapy at the then newly founded Dunkelfeld Project in Berlin. Therapy was quite hard but has helped me to regain a foothold in life within 2 years after therapy had ended at the beginning of 2009. From that moment on I sought to talk and help others with what I had experienced. And though I have been unemployed most of time and this topic has totally flipped my life upside down it has been a great time, a great 11 years now online. And I think I have found my vocation here.
I would love to get to know a bit more about your forum and community. It is so sad that the language barrier blocks us in Germany from even really knowing what our Czech and Slovakian neighbors are doing in a project so similar to ours. I want to know eeeeeverything!
Oh, and the way I have first heard of ČEPEK was at the american VirPed-forum and again later when I watched the film „Daniel‘s World“ during the Berlinale filmfestival. I was blown away when I realised how active and not only online-active but also real-life-active this community is. A step we still have to take but are working at currently, to become more proactive instead of just reactive.
So that‘s what comes to my mind right now. I am haply to be here, will try to read through as much as I can in the english section (sadly the russian I have learned doesn’t really help me much with the Czech language) and hope I can get to know you guys and girls.
Best greetings from Germany,
My team‘s 3 projects: